
Sadly... life goes on. Nothing has ever gone just the way i like it. im always the one not doing and getting destroyed. Would anyone care if i just disappeared for the day? or maybe would anyone care if i got killed by an accident? Would there be anyone there on my funeral.. Or would there even be one... i guess no one cares. Just like the old days huh? alone... without anyone. Some may say best friends will help you, but there are times, best friends cannot always be there. My heart, always missing and at the wrong place at the wrong time, never waiting nor seeking. Whats wrong with me... maybe im just a freak i always tell myself. just a freak, nothing more, nothing less. Why do i always give Everyone a chance? a chance to help themselves with me and my abilities. Scared and indecisive.... Sigh. I have never really commimted bad things in my life.. what made me deserve this? In Christianity, i have nvr done anything bad, forgiven everyone that were enemys to me. Some goes to Buddhism no bad things, no gurdges... What made my life suck!?
Orh well, no more, always the one sad. lol. = / what to do.. what to do.... orh well.